finalssssssss

sorry you guys, I’ve been super busy cuz its the week before finals. not much has happened, so dont worry. i got in a little fight with c about how i always say things without thinking, and my ex-friend z imed me and was trying to re-fight with me, but i dont have time to think about it now. luvoo! rosay out.

Hugs and Kisses

Wazzaaaa!!!
Ok so today was actually ok. i did well on my…agg i cant remember what it was, but i did well on it. i totally think i aced my spanish quiz, and my friends were actually nice to me. i forgot to tell you guys something before. im bi, and i recently came out to my friends. i made a huuuuuge mistake by telling this jerk (who was my friend, and then we got in a few fights, but i still thought we were friends) and she ended up telling pretty much everyone. so that fucked me up badly.

Now that like everyone at the school knows (oh and btws i go to an ALL GIRLS SCHOOL) everyone acts weird around me. it as worse in the beginning, but i still see little things that make me so mad everyone once in a while. like the other day, my friend (who ill call s…haha gossip girl) like was just spontaneously kissing everyone on the cheek. i cant stand the fact that if i had done that everyone would think i was trying to make a move on them! then like my friend e came back after lunch and everyone was all “hey!” and were giving her hugs an stuff. first of all, i would give ANYTHING in the world to be able to have friends who care about you enough to miss you when youre gone for like an hour. secondly, my friends scooch over whenever i like mistakenly hit their foot at the lunch table or something. that makes me sooo sad.

i have like 59083290 projects due tomorrow. rosay out.

Farewell, Late Wednesdays.

right now imma talk about school and the new rules their implementing.

So the thing is, we have these late start wednesdays which are pretty much the only time we get to relax from our super stressful lives. fyi, i got to a school for super smart ppl. im such an outsider. yeah i do do a lot better than a good amount of the ppl there, but i feel so out of it. like ppl i know i taking one ap and like 3 honors classes next year. as a SOPHOMORE. and little old me, im taking one honors that i dont even think i shud be taking. anyway, the tachers are stopping late start wednesdays cuz they say that they make us more stressed out cuz they mess up the bus schedules. WTFFF? who gives a shit about the stupid busses. i want to fucking sleep in! and thats NOT stressing us out right? and theyre also thinking of getting rid of the bells cuz they “stress ppl out” too. seriously, the only thing stressing ppl out is the HOMEWORK LOAD. fucking idiots. my friend said something rlly smart about this. she was  all, yeah without the bells, ill be late to every class, and ill get so many detentions , which will make me even more stressed, then ill get a suspension, and eventually, ill get expelled, and then i wont have any hw, and I WONT BE STRESSED!!!!! true dat. rosay out.

Hola, I iz Rosay.

So pretty much this is my blog. I’m gonna go by Rosay. anyway, im an almost sophomore in a extremely pressuring high school. i’ve always just been an outsider. idk why. i get depressed about every two days, and once in a while, i cut. well ive only done it about 4 times and then i couldnt get to anything sharp so i just dug my fingers really hard into my arms and legs and scraped me and shit. then ill eat my face out, and ill sorta feel better. but those arent that healthy of habits, and i thought a blog would help me express my feeling healthily.  ive always wanted to have a blog, so i finally made one. this is why im an outsider:

 

• way too hyper
• no self control
• very slow-witted (but im pretty smart, some how)
• fat
• ugly
• loud
• too emotional
• get attached to people
• needy
• always hungry
• im obsessive about animals (im a veggie) and the environment

yeah, thats pretty much me. rosay out.